Holding On

I keep holding on, holding on to you, the idea of you, the idea of us, the idea that it could all work out and we could be so happy.

but i am fool.

As soon as i'm without you the realisation that you are just a dream, that i can't hold on forever.

reality is calling.

nodus tollens

nodus tollens n. the realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore—that although you thought you were following the arc of the story, you keep finding yourself immersed in passages you don’t understand, that don’t even seem to belong in the same genre—which requires you to go back and reread the chapters you had originally skimmed to get to the good parts, only to learn that all along you were supposed to choose your own adventure.
Found : http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/48395591256/nodus-tollens

Some days I feel a lot like that.

it feels like the plot to my life has already been written and i'm off doing a side quest.